Friday, October 30, 2009

Homo no more

Sometimes . . . I don't want to be gay anymore. I don't just mean the terminology - I don't want to be attracted to guys. Not that I have anything against gay folk; some of the nicest people I know are gay. It's just that for someone in my position - a man married to a woman - it's dang inconvenient to be heterosexually-challenged.

I can't help being gay. I try to not let it define me - but it is an important part of who I am. Telling me to ignore my gayness is like telling a tall person to ignore their height. Do you want them going around conking their head on door frames? But, just as a tall person may sometimes wish they were of more average height, or a person might wish they had straight or curly hair - I sometimes wish I liked girls more. Well ... truth be told ... more than 'sometimes'.

It's just not fair! It's not fair to my wife; it's not fair to me. Why do guys have to be so dang attractive?

SIGH

7 comments:

D-Train said...

I apologize on behalf of men everywhere. :P If only you had the willpower that I do to just quit being gay like I did when I quit being straight.

Chedner said...

I know exactly how you feel, Abe... well, minus the wife part...

Quinn said...

Psh, I'm still mad so I'm not going to comment about your post (hehe) But I don't like the button for the moho directory.

Its has so many images that, to me are not exactly representative of me. I guess what I am trying to say is I would have liked to put a button on my page, but not that one. I hope I don't offend its creator in saying this.

I have an idea for one, and will submit it when Im done.

Robert said...

Hey man, I'm so sorry. Yeah, I feel that frustration sometimes too (more than sometimes). I'm only positive that because of your situation, it's much more frustrating.

P.S. Just get some more willpower like what D-Train was talking about. Hahaha. I mean, come on, you were able to muster it when you quit being straight...didn't you? ;)

Abelard Enigma said...

D-Train, Robert, I just wish I had the willpower to quit pretending to be straight [sigh]

Chedner, [group hug]

Quinn, I certainly prefer something noncontroversial and inclusive. A nice image for the header, and maybe even a background image, would be nice too [hint]. I'm sorry you're still mad - I hope it's not directed at me ...

Quinn said...

OH oops, No Im not mad at you at all, that was for someone else's blog, sorry. (its is a joke between he and I)

Sean said...

I know what its like as do many others around here. Despite how hard it is being honest to ones self there is a feeling of relief. "...faithful and true we will ever stand..."