Lately I just don't seem to care about anything any more.
I have a beautiful Oak tree that sits outside of our kitchen. It is under this tree that I rebuilt a deck earlier this year. I have several bird feeders and used to enjoy sitting at the kitchen table watching cardinals, blue jays, chickadees, and other birds at the bird feeders. But, now the birds are gone - because the feeders are empty, and I don't care!
I have a G scale garden railroad that winds around my back yard. But, it's been a long time since a train ever ran on those tracks. Part of the track is in need of repair due to erosion from the torrential rains we had earlier in the year. Other parts of the track are so overrun with plants from the garden that the track is no longer visible. There is an expansion to the track plan which I started over a year ago that still sits half finished, And, I don't care!
I have what once used to be a beautiful garden, an oasis from the cares of the world. Now it is overrun with weeds. Plants are in disparate need of pruning. And, I don't care!
I haven't been eating healthy. In fact, I've even had the occasional thought "maybe I'll have a heart attack and die". And, I don't care!
What has happened to me? I don't have any passion any more - for any thing. I just exist. I'm not overly sad or depressed; but, I'm not happy either. I'm just flat, and I don't care!
I've fallen into a funk and I can't get up!