Sorry, I deleted my Easter message because -L- brought up a good point in his comment. Someone who knows me could potentially recognize it and unmask me.
It's unfortunate that I have to play these games. Such is the plight of a gay Mormon, especially one who must remain in the closet.
I know my spiritual side doesn't always come through very strong in my blog - simply because that isn't what I focus on in my blog. But, I do have a testimony of the atonement. I don't fully grasp what it all means - but I know the Savior loves me, that he suffered and died for me. I also know that I am not worthy of his atoning sacrifice, that I fall short in many ways. But, I also believe that this is not a race - we shouldn't compare ourselves to others. For me, the important thing is: Am I a better person today than I was yesterday? Am I a better person this week than I was last week, or this month or this year.
And, besides, I was "Saved" in a protestant church before I joined the Mormon church, so I'm covered either way :-)
And maybe, just maybe, I can make it through Sacrament meeting without screwing up somehow. So far I've:
- Forgotten to do the Sacrament (twice)
- Worn mismatching pants and coat
- Forgotten to acknowledge stake visitors
- Forgotten to do callings and releases
- Forgotten to read in the names of new move-in's
- I stood up at the pulpit, announced the opening hymn. And, as I was just about to announce who would be giving our opening prayer - I realized that we hadn't asked anyone. In desperation, I turned around to face the Bishop, and he pointed to the 2nd counselor.
Now, in my defense, normally our Executive Secretary finds people to say the prayers, and he was out sick that day. But, I still take full responsibility for not making sure we were ready before starting the meeting.
Easter Sunday should be a good Sacrament meeting in our ward. Our choir is putting on an Easter program. The primary children will be singing. And, I asked our Gospel Doctrine instructor to be the closing speaker and give his thoughts on the Atonement. He is a very good speaker - I'm looking forward to hearing what he has to say.
Plus, my son is bringing his non-member wife to church, and my daughter is bringing her non-member boyfriend. So, life is good!