Monday, April 30, 2007

The Master

the tempest is raging!
The billows are tossing high!
The sky is o're shadowed with blackness
No shelter or help is nigh.
Carest thou not that we perish?
How canst thou lie asleep
when each moment so madly is threatening a grave in the angry deep?

I love this hymn (#105 "Master, the Tempest Is Raging"). I wish we would sing it more in church. Unfortunately, it is also a long hymn, and it is one of those hymns that you really need to sing all three verses. So, we don't get to sing it that often, at least in my ward.

with anguish of spirit I bow in my grief today
The depths of my sad heart are troubled
Oh, waken and save, I pray!
Torrents of sin and of anguish sweep o'er my sinking soul
And I perish! I perish! dear master
Oh, hasten and take control!

The first two verses describe how I've been feeling today.

the terror is over.
The elements sweetly rest.
Earth's sun in the calm lake is mirrored,
And heaven's within my breast
Linger, O blessed Redeemer!
Leave me alone no more,
And with joy I shall make the blest harbor
And rest on the blissful shore.

I wish I could feel like the 3rd verse more often. But, today I feel tormented. I feel like I'm in a tug-of-war - and I'm the rope.

Maybe it's just a letdown from all of the frenzied activity over the past few weeks leading up to my son's marriage on Saturday. But, all I want right now is to be a real boy. One who could love his wife like real boys do. Is that too much to ask for?


Foxx said...

You know it's only too long because either the chorister leads too slowly or the pianist plays too slowly. Or both. :D

It's actually a real treat to sing at nearly twice the "standard" tempo - which, incidentally, is much closer to the actual recommended tempo. We used to sing it as fast as we could. It makes me giggle!

Mormon Enigma said...

I remember one time, a few months after joining the church, I was at home sitting at the piano playing some of the hymns in our LDS hymnal. My mother walked through the room, paused, and then said "is that what you sing in your church? They sound like funeral dirges." I was playing them like I was used to singing them in church.

Kengo Biddles said...

Speaking ONLY for myself, I'm less gay now than I used to be. I've found myself "turned on" by Miki more and more as the years pass. I think part of it is mental, and part of it just comes with time...

MoHoHawaii said...

Is that too much to ask for?

'Fraid so, ya big 'mo.

I think you're great, btw. Nobody knows how to do this. We're all just winging it.

You'll get back into the groove. There's always a feeling of let down after a big event is over.

Best of luck to you and warmest wishes,